hi, im chelsea. im 17 and i seem to have misplaced all of my fucks. i hate myself, and i hate my life. but i try to cherish those who try to brighten up my days.

there isnt much to me. i like writing in lowercase. im musically challenged. im pretty friendly. ive realized that these are the happiest days of my life. my favorite color is red. i have yet to regret anything.

i live in maryland, and its a super boring place. there are too many trees. ive learned a lot about life so quickly. maybe too quickly. im not sure that im ready. im scared. 

i switched schools in my junior year, so i dont have many friends anymore. i miss how everything used to be. but im learning to live with what i have and to become accustomed to disappointment.

lately the pain is becoming too much; i hate my school, i hate what ive become, and deep down i want to change everything, but i cannot change my environment i can only change myself. and ive been there. how much changing must i go through? i never feel stable anymore. its seems i will never obtain peace. 

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so finally im 18. it feels weird. ive moved 1500 miles away from home just to regain the stability i never found back in maryland. im homesick. still. just because im out of my niche. i missed you tumblr. and i missed my sanity. this new beginning will change everything.